In Sept. 19 IssueRussell County NewsBy Wade Daffron, Columnist
Sure, I have my moments of doubt.
Things were so bad last week, I didn't even write a column. (OK, OK, you can stop the applause, now...)
The “darkness” had crept in again.
My thoughts were cloudy, my logic fuzzy, and as I laid on the floor, staring up at the ceiling in a stupor, and caught myself speaking out loud.
“God....where are you?' I asked.
I stumbled through the day, flipping through stacks of bills, answering painful phone calls and emails.
Reality would occasionally tap me on the shoulder to remind me I had errands to run, kids to pick up, etc.
I'd be out, and see other people in conversation (probably talking about me) with shrugged shoulders, heads hung low, blank expressions.
The morose feeling fell like rain.
Then it started raining.
I got a few “bumps” as I assembled the kiddos all in one vehicle and listened to their, innocent, childish chatter.
Hmmm, what makes them so dag-gum happy all the time, I wondered.
They don't have anything to worry about-that's why they're happy, I answered myself.
I WANT TO BE HAPPY I screamed inside my head.
I looked up-as if I was expecting God to drop everything he was doing and say, “Oh, here Wade, let me make you happy!”
The kids started screaming and pointing at something, which, like everything else that day, had really got on my nerves.
“Look, daddy!” Drake said, “Is that a rainbow?”
“Cheer Bear!” Kate screamed.
I scanned the horizon to see the biggest, brightest, clearest rainbow I had ever seen in my life.
It contrasted brilliantly against a background of dark clouds.
It seemed to pulse, vibrate.
I drove slower, and slower...speechless.
Other cars had pulled off to the side of the road, and arms were outstretched-pointing upward.
Were they pointing at the rainbow...or at God?
I felt hot tears streaming down my cheeks.
And then I started laughing.
Laughing like crazy.
“What so funny, Daddy?” Drake said from the back seat.
“Hey guys?” I said.
“You think we've got room for one more person in here?”
Drake and Kate looked at each other, and noticed all the seats were taken.
“Nevermind,” I said. “He's already with us.”